Day 176 - If You Only Knew What The Future Holds

Happy New Year, dear ones!




Now would probably be a good time to talk about the past year, make some deep insight, try to come off as all mystical and philosophic. But I'm not going to do that. It was a good year for me - it had some ups and downs, but hell, that's life, right? :)

My wish for all of you reading is that you have a wonderful 2013. Simple as that. ♥

Day 175 - Twerked my wig off!

You know it's a great party when THIS happens. [Thanks, Lexi, for catching this pic of me!!!]




Much more to say about the party tonight, but I'm exhausted. It was the perfect way to get a start on 2013, I'll say that much. I am surrounded by some of the funniest, most awesome people in the world on a daily basis, and I need to be around them more. After the past week, I know I definitely can't take any friendships for granted.

I'm going to bed tonight with my heart full of love and my cheeks hurting from smiling so much. Not a bad way to end the night. :)

Day 174 - Like Sister Wives, But Better.

I'm sad again today. Another one of my plurk friends, Erica Harcourt, passed away. She was only 30. I wasn't super close to her and I won't pretend to be, but she was a kind person to me. Back in January when I was really sick, she sent me some texts just to check up on me. She was a good person, and she will be very much missed.

But it certainly makes you appreciate your remaining friends a lot more when you lose one...or two...in the course of a week. I told my plurk friends to promise me that they'll take care of themselves this year - I really couldn't stand to lose anyone else.

Like I mentioned yesterday, Ulaa, Aldwyn and I finally got together to take our holiday picture. Well, as Ulaa put it, "We should take our asshole Christmas picture." LOL!!

As we were getting ready to pose, I said it looked like a big cold orgy. She said I was the cream in the Oreo. Either way, this is what came out.




Everyone's ass looks huge in this picture.

I don't even know, y'all. I don't even know.

Day 173 - Like the cream in the cookie

We haven't had a chance to take a holiday picture this year, so finding ourselves all online at the same time with some spare minutes, we hopped up in my snow globe to snap a few pics.




It's really hard to be a model some days.

Since some people have been asking me about the New Year's Eve Eve party [RYLAN.] - well... yes, it's still on. :) It's going to be a smaller event this year than in the past few years. We'll be in our gazebo and it'll be just a time to dance and enjoy each other's company. I'm still not sure of the time yet, but it'll be Sunday, the 30th, probably around 7 or 8pm SLT. I'll lock down the details tomorrow when I know about my schedule more. But I would definitely love to see all my friends and readers there!

Bedtime for this girl. :)

Day 172 - In The Still Of The Night

We're all still down tonight. I guess that's to be expected for a while. Even though in my heart I know she wouldn't want us to be sad, it's hard not to be. And believing as I do, I know she's in a better place where she's strong and healthy and walking tall. To be sad for too long is selfish of me. As she would say, "Suck it up, princess!"

We're planning on building a little memorial garden on Bluebonnet on Renee's parcel at some point. Well, Ulaa plans on building it. I don't have much talent for that. Whenever it's finished, I'll post the SLurl so people can come visit if they want.

But for tonight, it's nice to just be here - quietly.

Day 171 - Goodbye, my friend

There are people you think will always be in your SLife. You might not get to talk to them much, despite the fact that they are your SL neighbor, but you feel better just seeing their name on your radar. Renee GossipGirl was one of those people for me. She came into my SLife probably around 2009 and we became friends. Eventually she moved onto a small parcel next to mine on Bluebonnet. Once in a while she'd wander over to say hi, or she'd pop up in my IMs. No matter what she had going on in her life, if I appeared to be having a bad day, she'd IM me just to let me know that I was cared about.

This evening I received word that my dear friend passed away on December 20th.

Renee had congenital muscular dystrophy. She'd been in a wheelchair for many years. She needed help breathing and eating. She had more reason than anyone else I know to truly be angry at life. And yet, Renee was not angry. In fact, I had never met anyone who had as much joy in them. It radiated through her every word. Even on the worst days, she'd get her treatments at the hospital or from her nurse and then shrug it off.

If I was complaining about someone, she'd ask me, "Who is it so I can run over them in my wheelchair?" She understood my sadness over my fertility issues because she loved children and wanted them for herself. She did things in SL that she couldn't do in RL - like have a wedding [which is how I first met her, when she invited me to her wedding] and have a baby. She was able to work in a store in SL for a time. She had a family in SL. She had a home. She was able to wear heels. She was able to dance.

Renee loved Second Life. She especially loved the holidays in Second Life. The last time we spoke was 2 days before she died and she sent me a notecard. She wanted to know what I wanted for Christmas.

"I can already hear the "you don't have to" song & dance but its my choice. I only have a small list but you are part of it as you are dear to my heart."

You, too, sweetheart. You, too.

This was her last home in Second Life. I'm going to leave it up for a while.

Day 170 - Christmas Eve

Christmas Eve! No, I'm actually not in the Christmas mood still, but I'm quite thankful to the wonderful designers that have given items so freely over the past month. Especially since that's PRETTY much the only time my poor alt, Piper, gets anything new!!




I got bored this evening and decided to overwork my computer to take a picture of Piper and myself in our matchy matchy outfits, skins, and hairs. Piper's shape used to be quite tall and thin, but now she's actually a bit smaller than me, more "teen" like. You can't tell in this photo since we look almost exactly alike with the smiles, but I'm trying to get her face to look a bit more like Mila Kunis. Or Lucy Hale. I haven't decided really which way I'm going. Of course, the next time I bother pulling her out to play with, I'll probably make her tall and more athletic looking. The last time I had changed her shape was last December. So here's looking to December 2013! :-p

Ulaa and I decided to take our alts out and about tonight to get freebies and stuff. Somehow we ended up at a club that is very... ummm...open with nudity. LOL! We were wearing freebie Christmas outfits that aren't exactly high quality, but it didn't really matter since we were immediately run into by a guy with an exposed peen, a naked she-male, and a girl with blingy earrings wearing a Shy Caramel skin.

Good music at the club, though. So there's that.

Day 169 - Confession

So I have a confession to make.

I really have no Christmas spirit this year.




I know, I know. People are all "Oh my god, you should be happy! You should be excited! You should be full of fun and joy!"

Aw, suck it. :-p

I just don't feel like doing anything for Christmas. Buying gifts isn't fun because everyone in my life buys what they want when they want it, and the things they don't buy would be too expensive for me to buy for them. My parents don't really care about Christmas or making a big deal about it, although I did get them both a little something anyway. I don't have children to decorate or bake for. So... yeah.

But, I do feel bad about feeling the way I do. I get cards and feel guilty that I haven't gotten any to send out. People ask me what I want for Christmas, and all I want to say is, "I want it to be over!"

Maybe next year the Christmas spirit will hit me full force. But as for this year... skipped.

Sorry for a bummer of a post. Maybe I'll do better next time.

Day 168 - Finally Normalish

Oh my God, what a week. I've been ridiculously sick, ridiculously busy, and ridiculously exhausted! But everything is kind of calming down, and it's kind of normalish here now.




I can't wait for the holidays to be over, I can tell you all that much. Not that I don't enjoy Christmas and whatnot, but I really want things to just settle down!

Day 167 - Just A Picture

I don't really have much to talk about today. It's been a quiet weekend for me and aside from decorating and hitting up some yard sales for The Arcade, I haven't done much. [BTW, if anyone has the Primrose cottage and the table from Pilot from The Arcade, and you want to give me a gift... :-p Or I'll buy them from you for twice the cost of the gacha, but not higher.]

Anyway, I took this picture tonight. Thought it was pretty enough. :)