Day 246 - Hey Now!!

I said go home, Flat Rodvik!




Some men just never listen.

Day 245 - Find Your Own Way Home, Flat Rodvik!!

I was so excited to do the new Flat Rodvik meme from Berry! I saw it last night before I went to bed and happily planned my afternoon with the guy.

Things didn't turn out how I expected.

I thought we'd start our afternoon together with some ice cream! Who doesn't like ice cream, am I right? I couldn't decide what flavor, so we got 3 scoops of fun! At least, I got 3 scoops of fun. When I offered some to Rodvik, he was kind of disinterested in it.




Well, no biggie. I guess he's lactose intolerant and didn't want to spoil the rest of our day with running to the bathroom. That was very polite of him, now that I think about it!

We stuck around my vacation home because I thought that he'd probably enjoy just having fun there and away from crowds. After all, when you're a Linden - especially the top Linden! - you're probably happy to not be slammed with IMs from crazy people. I thought he'd enjoy a ride on my new whirly thing!




Okay. First of all, he didn't even OFFER to push it, so I had to do all the pushing. Which, that's FINE... I'm sure it's hard to push in his robe and sandals. That's fine. But then he just stood basically in the middle. That's hardly any fun! Maybe he has issues with being dizzy? Some people do.

Things really started going south when I challenged him to a twerking contest and he wouldn't even TRY. Who wouldn't want to twerk with me?!




By this time, I was annoyed. He didn't want ice cream, he didn't want to spin, he didn't want to twerk. What was the deal?? Was he tired? Bored of me? Doesn't like blondes? Hungry??? Finally I offered him some delicious rice bunnies from my bento box and he was totally not into it!!




You know what, Flat Rodvik? YOU KNOW WHAT? There are lots of people who would love to play with me and spin with me and twerk with me and eat my rice bunnies!! TONS OF PEOPLE.

Whatev. You can find your own way home. I'm going inside for a nap.

Day 244 - Goodbye July

I wish I didn't let certain things affect me. This month, it just seems like a lot of things have touched me emotionally. Way more emotionally than they should have. If this were November, I'd understand. I'm highly anxious, depressed, and just crazy in general in November. But it's July. I shouldn't feel this way. But all things considered, I wouldn't be me if I didn't feel like I do.

Don't worry. I'm okay, really. But I won't be sad to say goodbye to this July.

Day 243 - The Bucket List

So Miss Berry had a SL Bucket List meme for this week. And I wasn't going to do it because I kept thinking, "What else do I really want to do in SL? I've done lots of things!"

But many many years ago when I used to go to leadership training camps, one day the instructor told us to reach up as high we possibly could. So we did. Then he said to reach higher. And we did. He said that if we had REALLY reached as high as we could the first time, there was no way we could have reached higher, therefore no matter what we did, we could always figure out a way to do even more if we really wanted. That always stuck with me. So while thinking about this meme, I realized there is more that I want out of my SLife.




The Bucket List:

1. Get better at Photoshopping my pictures. There are so many wonderful graphic artists in SL and when I see their pics on Flickr, I always think, "Why can't I do something that amazing?!" The truth is, I could, if I put the time into learning how to do it.

2. Make something in mesh and have it not look crazy. I have Blender. I have several tutorials. I have a brain. Granted, it's not a very techy type of brain, but it's a brain. If some people I know could learn how to do it, I know I could, too.

3. Finally get a family in SL. I know I have my husband and all, but I feel like we need more people to be close with. I want sisters, brothers, the whole nine yards. I'm still flip-floppin' on the whole adoption thing, but I think that's because my RL is a little stressy right now and I tend to only think about adoption when I have more time to devote to SL.

4. Help out with an event. I don't want to RUN a whole event, but I'd like to help out with one as more than just a blogger. I got to kind of help a bit with The Shoe Expo back in 2010, which was really fun because that was like, MY event, but I didn't do a whole lot for it besides blog towards the end.

5. Get into a couple of blogger groups for certain stores. NOT saying which ones!!! :-p But there are a couple of stores where I think I'd cry if I ever got invited to be an official blogger for them. Even better would be if they invited me without my having to apply. I just want them to see what I do and like it enough to want me!

6. Go to more than 5 parties in one night and actually have fun at them. My record for party hopping in SL right now is 3. So um, some of you need to have more parties so I can come make an appearance.

7. Do an AO-less run across more than 12 mainland sims. I don't know why I want to do this. I just do. LOL

8. Go to a really good live show and not mute 75% of the audience for being gesturbating attention whores. Do I need to explain this?

9. Have more than 5 really gorgeous things named specifically after me. My friend Kellee made a ballet outfit years ago and named it for me. My friend Ewan named one of his latest creations for me. So I just need 3 more things!

10. Host and DJ a party so spectacular, people talk about it for a full year afterwards. I don't think I need to explain this one either. I think I've had some pretty impressive parties, but I want to have the mother of all parties one day!

Ten things for now, but I'm sure I could come up with 10 more if I thought about it. There's always more to do!

Day 242 - Dizzy Up The Girl

It's been a dizzy 24 hours. Like, actually dizzy. I drank something yesterday that probably wouldn't bother anyone else in the world because it was all organic and healthy, but I get side effects to everything and the big one to this has been dizziness. Fun times! I'm hoping it goes away soon because for real? My brain feels crazynuts.

But, at least I look pretty today.




Aldwyn and I are "vacationing" on a little beach parcel this month. Once in a while we like to leave Bluebonnet and chill out somewhere else. Not to get away from anyone on the island because, quite frankly, hardly anyone is online when we are. LOL But we just like to go somewhere once in a while. This time we went to a place where SSB/A has already been rolled out since I have a lot of SL issues and the SSB/A seems to make it better. I can't wait for Sunshine to be rolled out all over the grid.

The title of this post is making me think of the Goo Goo Dolls, so I'll leave you guys with probably my favorite of their songs. [Although pretty much every song is my favorite. I love this group.]

Day 241 - Berry's Intriguing Questions

It occurred to me lately that I've been having fun learning new Photoshop things that all of my pics are looking very heavily Photoshopped. So here's just a raw snap of me in SL, no liquifying, no filters, no color balance, no curves, no blurring. Just me in my normal windlight.




Berry has another meme for us - Intriguing questions! I can't pass over the opportunity to talk about myself, so you know I'm all over this.



1. How do you deal with criticism?

I'm pretty good at hearing it if I feel it's coming from a place of actually wanting to help me. Criticism for the sake of just being an asshole...well, mostly I ignore that. Or I spread nasty rumors, have stores shut down, etc.

I'm kidding about that, btw.

Spending a good 10 years of my life in competition settings, I got really used to criticism. You have to learn to listen to it, weed through the bad, and get to the good. It can truly make you a better person.

2. What’s the most infuriating thing other SL residents do?

Criticize me.

Hahahaha! Okay, kidding about that, too. [Don't you love my blogposts when I've gotten very little sleep?]

I think what irritates me the most is the resistance to change that so many residents have. They're so quick to think the worst about Linden Lab and Second Life, that any change, even if it IS for the better, throws them into a tailspin of crazy. I've been hanging out a little on the SL forums the past couple of days and the resistance to server side appearance/baking is hysterical to me because people are screaming that their SL is now broken beyond belief - despite the fact that they are either in a very old viewer OR not even on one of the sims where SSA/B has been implemented.

3. Which SL resident would you most like to have lunch with and why?

Aldwyn and Ulaa, of course! I'd love to spend even just an hour with them in real life just because I love them. But really, I've love to hang out with almost all of my SL friends at some point. I think it would be fun!

4. Who would you say is your “anti” role model? Someone who serves as a warning rather than an inspiration?

*snickers*

*gigglesnorts*

*laughing behind my hand*

Oh. Yeah. I don't name and shame.

5. What was something you used to enjoy, but was ruined for you?

Blogging some events. I won't say which, or why.

6. What’s something you want to do that you’d be embarrassed to tell other people about?

I actually would like a Zooby baby. I don't know if I'd want to do the whole SL pregnancy thing, but I'd like a baby and to decorate a nursery and play with the baby and all that stuff.

7. What’s the oddest term of endearment you’ve ever used or that someone’s used for you?

Hmm... I can't think of any. I call everyone sweetie or honey. Or booboo, BERRY.

8. Have you ever fallen in love with another SL resident?

Duh? LOL!

9. Describe a time/event in your slife that you’re nostalgic for.

I miss when Cen was in SL, when we were always at the Viper Pit, hanging out and throwing parties, but before she started really blogging. I feel like a lot of things changed when she started blogging and getting more known. It wasn't her fault, but back when we were blogging in 2008, things were different because there were more of us who did personal SL blogs, not fashion blogs, and a lot of SL residents read our blogs. So then they'd IM or come by and she was very very open in her blog, and it led to some craziness. So I guess really from January to May 2008, that's what I'm nostalgic for.

10. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?

Pay my island for a month? *snickersnorts*

Mmmm... I don't know. Maybe custom make something just for me, or take a great picture of me, or send me something I've said I wanted. I'm pretty easily pleased with gifts.

Day 240 - Some Were Born To Sing The Blues

My heart is heavy tonight.




I'm okay. I'm just sad. Sometimes you just hear news that makes you sad, even if it doesn't actually personally affect you. And that's okay. It's okay to be sad about things or people that aren't really part of your every day life. As long as you care, it matters. They matter.

Day 239 - Let The Sunshine In

My SL experience hasn't been the most awesome in the past few months simply because my dinosaur of a computer hasn't been able to really keep up. I lag a lot. I mean, a LOT. I had brief success switching from the old Firestorm to the Linden Lab viewer, but only for a little bit. The new version of Firestorm allowed me to move around a little more easily, but there was always a chance that something as simple as an IM could lock me up for a few minutes. Even just turning around in the house was hard! Unless I was taking a picture, I had to keep my graphics pretty low, and shadows were definitely not happening. I've powered through because well, it's SL and I love it and I just put up with it.

I kept hearing about server side baking, or "Project Sunshine" as the Lindens call it. Aldwyn kept wondering if it would help me out any. I wasn't sure, but I'll admit, I was doubtful that anything short of a new computer could help.

Sunshine started rolling out to some sims this week and tonight we headed over to one of the updated sims to see how things would go.

Y'all.

OMG.

I was able to run around on Ultra, at about 300m draw distance, with shadows on! And my shadows didn't look like crap!




I'm just so excited!! I ran all over the place with my shadows on and we teleported around to a few of the other SSB-ready sims. I finally crashed, but we were in a place with a lot of scripts and textures and I was camming around like crazy.

Oh, and changing skins and clothes? Easy as pie. I switched my skin about a dozen times, different brands, and all of them popped up almost instantly! I mean, it was ridiculously fast, especially when I'd go back to one I'd worn already.

I don't know if server side baking is the answer to everyone's SL technical problems, but right now it seems to be the answer to my biggest one.

Hey, if any Lindens are reading this, please roll out the Sunshine to Bluebonnet!! PLEASE!

If you're interested in trying it out yourself, make sure you're on an updated viewer [I'm on the latest Firestorm] and you can head to any of these sims.

Day 238 - Candle Magic

I've always loved candles, even as a very little girl. There's just something magical about them. I wish more places in SL made candles because well, as you can see... I need more.





It's been kind of a busyish week for me, which is why I haven't been blogging like I was last week. Not that I think anyone would notice considering how sporadic I can be, but I felt like saying it. :) Hopefully this coming week I'll get back to normal. Of course, I've been saying that for 2 years, so.... :-p