Day 148 - I'm just listening to the clock go ticking.

I've been in a mood in SL the past few days. It's not a bad thing really. Usually these moods mean I'm going to change something to make myself happier.

Day 147 - It must have been good, but I lost it somehow.

I don't follow a lot of blogs. I mean, I DO follow them, but I don't sign up Google Reader follow them, you know? I just use my blogrolls or bookmarks or look at new posts on feeds and plurk. But there are a few that I have put in my Google reader. Did you know that even if they delete the blog, they remain in your reader? I was bored and glancing through tonight and came across Cen's old blog. And I sat there and I read every post.




I don't really talk about her much anymore. She left SL in early 2009 and well, 3 years is a long time to be holding on to something, right? But there are times when I really miss her still. Reading her blog, I can see how hard things were becoming for her towards the end, but I guess I'd always thought if she left being Cen, she'd become someone else. After all, she had done it before. That was part of our original bond - we were both "replacements." Of course, for all I know, she did start over and if so, I know she's out there having fun and laughing and enjoying SLife as she did before.

But I miss her. I miss our crazy adventures. I miss our long chats about our lives, both first and second. She was one of the better listeners I've encountered in SL, which meant a lot to me because I'm usually the listener. When we'd chat, I knew I had pretty much her full attention, as she had mine. I miss how we could sit quietly with each other for hours, barely talking, but there was nothing uncomfortable about it.

I know that things change. I know that there's the chance that our friendship wouldn't have lasted. We might have eventually had a falling out, or just drifted apart and became people who were just on each others' friends lists and spoke once in a great while. Or maybe we'd still be close, running around and laughing, exploring the grid with our men or our friends.

Cen, I have no idea if you still read my blog. If you do, just know that I miss you. And if you ever feel like talking... well. You know where to find me. ♥

Day 146 - The Place

So the other day, I was mentioning to Aldwyn [well, complaining mostly] that we don't really have a hangout these days. Yeah, we have our home, but no one really comes over and sometimes you just want a place where you can go to where you don't have to look your best, and you can just sit and talk, or not talk, or do whatever. Like years ago when CeNedra and I pretty much made Sam's Viper Pit our own. We had our own places, we just always ended up THERE to meet with friends, sort our inventory, and see where the night took us. It wasn't a club, and we didn't have events really [except that was the birthplace of the Hump Day parties I used to throw weekly], but people knew if they wanted to chill out, they could go there and do so.

Aldwyn, being smart and also willing to experiment with stuff, suggested we find a little parcel where we could put a place down and see if anyone would like to just come and hang out. So last night, The Place was born.

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The Place isn't fancy. It's not meant to be. We welcome everyone to come and just hang out. Build is on [20 minute auto-return], so if you need to drop boxes to sort your inventory, you can! Feel like sitting around quietly while you work on a script? Be our guest! Want to play a game a Greedy? The table is ready for you. Need a neutral place to bring a potential booty call without showing them your house? Hey, bring it on!

This is just an experiment for us, so if nothing comes of it, that's okay. But we hope that people will have fun coming by The Place and hanging out. :)

OH! The Place is on an adult sim, so you'll need to be adult verified to come, but it's not an adult type place, and we're up in the air, so seeing random peens probably won't happen. Just figured I would mention that!

Day 145 - Brown Eyed Girl

I wore some brown eyes for my style post earlier, and I think they're pretty, although I don't think I'll be changing forever. I think I might need to get some dark blue eyes, though.




Yeah, I know, it's been a week since I last updated. I wish I could say it's because I've been having soooo many adventures in SL, I haven't had time, but that's not the case at all.

I think it's probably time of a little revamp of my SLife. I just feel like I should be doing more and I don't know exactly what more is at this point. I can't say that I'm getting bored or burnt out because that's certainly NOT the case, but I do feel like maybe I should hang out with people more or something. I'm invited places once in a while, but I don't often go. I think I need to change that. Maybe.

Day 144 - Why didn't anyone stop me?

Many many years ago, I was in a job that paid well, but I was desperately miserable at. It wasn't terribly hard, and I was extremely good at what I was doing, but I was just unhappy as could be. To make up for my growing unhappiness, I developed a big shopping problem. Designer handbags, makeup by the box load, every book that caught my eye, shirts and jeans and funny colorful socks, and most every scent of candle at Yankee Candle - they all found their way into my hands and into my home. And while that sounds okay, it wasn't. I would walk into stores, feel euphoric that I was shopping, and then everything would blank out around me. Sometimes I would find myself back at home surrounded by bags of junk and not even remember how I got back to the apartment.

I had a problem. A big one. While the shopping made me happy for a few minutes, it didn't make me happy forever, and I was wasting money that I should have been saving. Eventually I left that job and being a lot happier, I stopped shopping so much. In fact, it's pretty rare now that I buy anything for myself except maybe nail polish or lip gloss once in a while. Or funny colorful socks, which I still have a love for. But last night and today in Second Life, I found myself back in that blacked out, euphoric, how the hell did I get home? kind of place again.




I've been kind of down in the dumps the past 2-3 days. Part of it is the weather. I don't do well in rainy, gray, yucky kind of weather. The other part is just me being sad. So going to The Arcade was a mistake. There are many cute things, but I didn't need most of them. I just needed to shop. It made me happy for a little bit. But now here I am, still down, holding these items that will probably never see the light of day again, and kicking myself for spending so much.

Blah. I'll get over it. I just needed to vent a little. We can't be up all the time.

At least I got the platinum hamster I wanted. So there's that.

Day 143 - Hi Cows!

There was a time, a long long time ago, that I used to adore wearing costumes in SL. Oh, I had TONS. But these days, I prefer to just dress up for blog posts, and wear jeans or shorts any other time. But once in a while, I put on a costume, like the little hamster avatars from The Arcade. Tooooo cute!




If anyone gets an extra Platinum or Fairy Popsicle colored hamster, I will buy it off of you!

There are still so many things I want from The Arcade but it was like "buy...crash...buy...crash" all night for me, and I even ended up losing stuff. :( I guess I will just wait and go later this week. It's hard to not want to get in there immediately since everyone is trading and giving away items already, but it's just not happening for me right now!

Day 142 - I'm not as mad as I look

I was editing this pic and thinking of what to write about, and I realized my face looks all mad. :-p I'm a little whiny and lonely tonight, but not mad!!




Well, this would be a really great time to talk about how I edit my face for photos to give it more expression sometimes than the flat mad face, but the Oleanders have yelled at me to come watch a movie, so I'm off!

Day 141 - The Great Outdoors

Our home has been really bland regarding landscaping over the past few months. Oh, I tried but summer is not my favorite time to do many things. Autumn, however... I just love decorating for it!! I've been getting dirt under my nails and putting people to work to get our home ready for the upcoming season.




This is the side opposite the small creek that runs by our house. Ulaa "Falled" up our wedding gazebo and twisted some autumn vines all over. The playground we'd had up at the camp site is back, and tucked into a corner is our new outdoor movie theater. I think it looks amazing!!

I think next we'll just work a little more on our "backyard" and then it'll be done!

Day 140 - The Story Never Ends

I had a really nice out of the blue IM yesterday from someone who wanted to tell me that she likes my blog, and likes the story ones. I like writing more of the "Roleplay" aspect of my SLife, but I don't do it a whole lot for a couple of reasons. One, I'm alone a great deal in SL and while I can write fun stories about random crap I do, I doubt anyone wants to read "I stood in our living room for 2 hours staring at myself." The best stories involve others and other places. And that leads me to two - I'm really SLazy. :-p I don't leave Bluebonnet a whole lot unless it's just to run into a store, grab something, and go. And setting up stories? Kind of tough sometimes!! Especially if I'm in a creative funk.

But, after talking a bit about this on plurk, I was surprised to see that others like stories, too. I think so many in my circle get just in this mindset that people just want to see our outfits, not read about our SLives or anything like that, and it's not the case!! Maybe it was for a while, but it seems like that's not true anymore.

So expect more stories in the future here. The story really never ends. :)

Day 139 - Good morning!

Awww. We've officially become THAT couple, the one that leaves SL on all night while we sleep.




Actually, I haven't been sleeping very well the past few nights, and last night I was so relaxed while we were on Skype, I got up from my computer and went and laid down on the couch. [Which is on the other side of my desk, so I could keep my headset on.] If you've ever been around Aldwyn, you know he has a really calming presence, which is great for someone like me because I'm so high strung. I was half asleep and told him I didn't want to get up to log out of SL, and he suggested we just stay. So we did. :)

Of course, now I'm up and he's gone to work and left me with his avatar.

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/me sits on her hands to try and not be a jerk today.

Day 138 - A Little Change

I've never been one to change skins too often. When I find a skin I really like, I tend to keep it and just keep tweaking my face because I always feel like I can make it BETTER. My beloved Briar skin is being retired, though, and I realized I was going to have to find a new "everyday" skin soon. I've been waaaaaitingggg for the Pink Fuel Kumi skin to be released and finally tonight it was!

I think it's me. :)




I didn't do too much Photoshop to that pic, just adjusted the light a bit.

Now the hard part - RE-TINTING ALL MY FEET. *cries*

Day 137 - More Movies

I set up our own little movie area on Bluebonnet tonight. The Cheeky Pea & Pilot collab for Collabor88 was just screaming at me to be set up. Plus I got to finish watching Footloose, which I rented a few days ago to watch on our tv in our house.




I hadn't planned on ever watching the remake of Footloose. I am a HUUUUUGE fan of the original. But I will say, as far as remakes go, this was pretty decent. They stuck fairly close to the original, even down to things that were said and songs that were used. I wouldn't buy the movie for keeps, but this is a 7 day clearance rental from Lightening Video, so it only cost me $199L. 80 cents worth of entertainment? Sure!

So last night was a little sad for me because two of my friends decided to move off the island. I have been expecting it because now that they're together in RL, that is obviously their focus, as it should be. But I honestly adore my renters, and losing any of them is hard for me! But, Ulaa decided she wanted the spot since her first parcel is usually completely full with all her builds. So now she can build on one parcel and live on the other. And it saves me from having to find someone else, although within 10 minutes of posting on plurk that I had a spot, I had people asking about it. That's always a good feeling!

Mmm...I guess it's time for more terraforming since my slavedriver of a husband keeps asking me about it. :-p