Friday, September 28, 2012

Day 147 - It must have been good, but I lost it somehow.

I don't follow a lot of blogs. I mean, I DO follow them, but I don't sign up Google Reader follow them, you know? I just use my blogrolls or bookmarks or look at new posts on feeds and plurk. But there are a few that I have put in my Google reader. Did you know that even if they delete the blog, they remain in your reader? I was bored and glancing through tonight and came across Cen's old blog. And I sat there and I read every post.

Day 147 - It must have been good, but I lost it somehow.


I don't really talk about her much anymore. She left SL in early 2009 and well, 3 years is a long time to be holding on to something, right? But there are times when I really miss her still. Reading her blog, I can see how hard things were becoming for her towards the end, but I guess I'd always thought if she left being Cen, she'd become someone else. After all, she had done it before. That was part of our original bond - we were both "replacements." Of course, for all I know, she did start over and if so, I know she's out there having fun and laughing and enjoying SLife as she did before.

But I miss her. I miss our crazy adventures. I miss our long chats about our lives, both first and second. She was one of the better listeners I've encountered in SL, which meant a lot to me because I'm usually the listener. When we'd chat, I knew I had pretty much her full attention, as she had mine. I miss how we could sit quietly with each other for hours, barely talking, but there was nothing uncomfortable about it.

I know that things change. I know that there's the chance that our friendship wouldn't have lasted. We might have eventually had a falling out, or just drifted apart and became people who were just on each others' friends lists and spoke once in a great while. Or maybe we'd still be close, running around and laughing, exploring the grid with our men or our friends.

Cen, I have no idea if you still read my blog. If you do, just know that I miss you. And if you ever feel like talking... well. You know where to find me. ♥

2 comments:

Asthenia said...

This is a very sweet post. I can somewhat relate because I still miss Laleeta around.
It's a weird thing when you can be so close with someone and then one day, they drop off the face of the virtual earth.

dialoguewithdaila said...

I miss both CeN and Laleeta. I didn't know CeN as well, but the few times we talked and plurked together, she hit me as awesome!

I hate that they both disappeared. I hope they sometimes check the blogs and see that no matter what condition they left in, we'd still welcome them back in any form or fashion.