Day 225 - Oh, The Magic Summer

For the past few years, my bestie of almost 18 years and I have said "Maybe this will be our magic summer!" You know the Magic Summer. When you're in school, there's that one person who leaves school at the end of the year too fat/too thin/too pimply/too frizzy haired/too uninterested in school/etc and then comes back to school as someone totally gorgeous and different. She and I never really had that [unless you count the summer I lost 30 pounds, but I really don't.] and we figure it's never too late.




I want this to be my magic summer. Not just in RL, but in SL as well. I want to learn more, do more, have more fun. Maybe this will be the summer we get our SL family started. Who knows? There's a whole world of opportunity!!

What would your magic summer be like?

Day 224 - Platform Sitter

I didn't have a lot of SL time today. It's my dad's 75th birthday! We didn't do a whole lot for it because he's not one for big parties or anything like that, so we took him to lunch and got a cake and it was just my parents and me, the way they like it. :) When I did get into SL, I stayed up on my platform while I was making the HUDs for my new nails.





Making nails has been so very very fun. I love that even though the nails don't come out all gorgeous and perfect like some of the other nail makers' nails do, they're still really cute [in my opinion, of course] and I like seeing them on my own nails. If you want to see what I've made, you can check them out in my marketplace store. Sorry about the Blingis. LMAO

Bedtime!

But It Was 99 Cents!

I was quite SL productive today, so I decided to dance on the beach for a bit while listening to a cover of Thrift Shop. I love when people on youtube pick rap songs or whatever and do acoustic covers!!




So I got my nails done today! I put together the little HUD and everything! They're not the most perfect nails you'll ever see, and they're not really supposed to be, but I can't help but be terribly proud.




If you like them, they're on Marketplace now. I have the HUD for the toenails, too. I haven't really been able to wear my SLink feet since the skin I wear most often doesn't have an applier yet. Boooo.

Okay, I'm so so so sleepy right now. I think it's time to pass out. :)

Day 222 - Hiding in SL

I've had a weird couple of weeks. It hasn't led to interesting blog posts, that's for sure. :-p I mentioned last month that my mom had her medical issues, remember? She had more tests done on Tuesday just because the doctors are still trying very hard to determine WHAT caused her major anemia. They can't believe anyone would get that anemic without some kind of big medical problem. Or being vegan. lol Sorry to all the vegans out there, but she was asked if she was one when she was in the hospital.

The problem was that these tests were invasive, and my mom is highly dramatic even on a normal day. So for the past two weeks, she's been a ball of anxiety, and so I'VE been a bigger ball of major anxiety because I'm my mother's daughter and that's how we roll. So I've had my panic attacks and been pretty much a bear to live with or be around.

Luckily, they didn't find anything crazy going on. No huge internal bleeds, no crazy problems. I couldn't tell if the doctor was relieved or kind of annoyed that the tests showed that everything was basically fine and she just showed the normal wear and tear of a 68 year old woman.

After a very very good night's sleep, I woke up today wanting to just eat junk food and kind of hide in SL. Do you ever feel like that? Like you just can't wait to get back in there even if all you do is sit around?




I actually got to spend some time with Aldwyn tonight, which was great. We never have nearly enough time together even on a regular day, so it was good to go out on the grid with him. I also got to see one of the homes Ulaa is working on for Home Expo, and I have a feeling we'll be switching houses soon. It's definitely a family sized house, which we don't really NEED [yet] but I like it a lot!

I spent a great part of the evening working on making fingernails to go with the SLink avatar enhancement hands. It's so fun! I have very much enjoyed all the pretty nails that other people have been making but they all looked, as many things in SL can look, just very very perfect. And that makes sense since the people making them seem to have some pretty decent Photoshop skills. I wanted some nails that look like I would have painted them myself. Just kind of cute, but definitely not perfect. I applied for a developers kit and Siddean gave it to me on Sunday. I just couldn't wait to get started but I couldn't get started until today. My plurk friends are totally amazing people and helped me out a LOT in learning how to put a "shine" to the nails. It didn't come out just like I wanted, but for my very very limited skills, I'm just pleased as punch with what I did!!! It was also loads of fun learning how to put the HUD together and all that. Mine looks very plain and basic compared to what others have done, but it's not like people wear the HUD to a fancy party, right? :-p I'm going to put it up on Marketplace for cheap once I get it done completely. But oh, I just want to make more nails!!

I'm completely and totally behind in blogging some other stuff, though. Well, not that I'm all that fast with blogging to begin with, but I FEEL like I'm behind. Hopefully all the medical issues and stuff will calm down for a while so that I can calm myself down and get back to whatever passes for normal around here. :)

Day 221 - 5-7-5

I'm a day late with Berry's latest meme, but mostly because I found this one harder to do! It's very easy for me when she asks lots of questions because, as we all know, I love talking about myself. :-p Doing a haiku about my SLife is harder because I haven't written poetry in a long time, and when I was heavily into it, all my poems were fantastically emo. But, I was 22 and had just lost my sister, so I'm not sure what I expected to write. I'd just go to the park and sit and cry and write emo sadpanda poems. But, I do like haikus, so I think I'll do her meme, and then expand a bit on it.

Here I am again
Just standing here all alone
Staring at my shoes.





I spend a lot of time in SL just staring at myself. Not because I'm vain or anything, but because I appreciate the work that people have done in making things like clothes and shoes and other avatar accessories. I think it's easy for me to do this because I'm rarely with people.

Back on my first account, I had a rather large group of friends. In 2007 I was the manager of a small strip club [LOL, I know] that I'd started out as a dancer in back in late 2006. I met a ton of people through that place, and at almost any time in the day, there were people milling around the club. I could go there and eventually someone would join me. Even if no one was dancing or there wasn't an event going on, there were usually people just there. It was an easy way of hanging out. Fast forward to 2008, and I had found myself another large group of friends, and another easy place to hang out at. I knew if I just went to the Viper Pit, eventually Cen or someone would stop in and we'd hang out and see where the day took us.

That all feels like a lifetime ago.

It's different now. Most people that I talk to choose not to go to clubs because they're annoyed by the gesture spam and by the fact that people rarely talk. Even when there is a place for hanging out [like we tried to put together], it's rare anyone goes. I see some people hanging out with their families at the adoption places, but that's a very specific group.

What I mostly see are a lot of people talking about how they stay on their platforms and never see anyone. I can't believe that EVERYONE is just standing somewhere on a platform alone while they plurk.

I think that somewhere along the line, we've lost the ability to just hang out in Second Life. If it were just me, I'd have an excuse. I'm shy, I'm a little scared to get close to people again, and I feel like people are going to leave once they get to know me OR once I tell them how I really feel about something. [This is not just limited to SL, btw.] But I see others talking about it, too. They want to be social, they don't know how.

It's sad. I want to break free of it. I just am not quite sure how.

Hmm. It seems that my poetry still lands me back in that emo sadpanda place. Dammit, Berry! LOL!!