Quiet For A Bit

Earlier tonight, it was just Abby, Aldwyn, and me. Birdy was off studying and the rest of the family were doing their thing. So we sat quietly for a bit.




Then the Oleanders came over and it got really loud really fast. :) But that's how our family is, and I wouldn't have it any other way! ♥

Baby, I'm amazed at the way you love me all the time

So it's been a running joke in the family that Aldwyn never changes clothes. In fact, he was in Bob Marley board shorts for like 4 months. I know. Embarrassing. LOL! The girls have been pestering him to change and finally last week he put some pants on. But yesterday I showed him some new stuff from FATEwear, so last night we grabbed the girls and headed out to do some shopping. They. Were. THRILLED. *laughs*

Since he actually changed clothes, I decided to get him on a pose with me to take a pic for the fashion blog. I'm one of the FATEplay bloggers, so I also get all the FATEwear stuff and feel awful that I so rarely get to blog it. I have a male shape and all, but I don't have a current male skin, just some old group gifts from Belleza. I really should put something together for when I get male items, but I just haven't. I'm kind of a lazy blogger that way.

I'll blog the actual picture tomorrow, but after I took the pic and we were still just standing around on the pose, I snapped this one. It's a teaser! *laughs* Or it's just a pic. Whatev.




So we suck and we totally let our 3 year wedding anniversary go by without actually doing anything for it. It was on the 18th. Can you believe this man has put up with me for this long? And now he has to put up with me AND our girls, who are [unfortunately for him] pretty much just like me. *laughs* But he loves us, even if we bother him about his clothes.

I should probably get in bed. It's way after midnight and I need to do stuff tomorrow - like getting snacks ready for our scouts meeting! I love our little Bumblebees and miss them during the week! I have some of them on plurk, but it's different there than when we're playing at the meetings. Tomorrow's should be a great one! But for that, I need sleep!

Kiss Away The Pain

So it was one of those days where I couldn't STOP being a nervous wreck. See, my dad hasn't been doing so great the past month or so. He's been moody, anxious, doesn't want to eat [well, according to my mom. He always eats if I'm around.], and has been not wanting to move much because he says his knee hurts. He DOES have very bad arthritis in his knee but I guess he's been in a lot of pain lately. He's not the kind of man who cries and runs to the doctor every time he has a headache, so when my mom asked if she could take him to the doctor to have his leg looked at, and he agreed, we knew things had finally become too much for him to handle.

I'm extremely close with my parents. If they're unhappy, I feel it. It gives me a lot of anxiety. But neither one of them thought I needed to come to his doctor's appointment today, so I stayed home in this constant state of anxious prayer. I prayed that the doctor was good to him, that my dad wouldn't be scared, that there was something that could be done for the pain. I prayed and I waited for the phone to ring. I didn't even eat and barely drank water. I just waited. I'm normally the caregiver, the one who drives them to every appointment, the one who fills out all the paperwork, the one who listens to the doctors just so there's an extra set of ears in the room. But this time they didn't need me, and so I stayed home, prayed, and waited.

Finally I couldn't stand it any longer and called my mom. Everything went fine. The doctor was good to my dad. Gave him options. They decided on a steroid shot to the knee and some medication that didn't have many side effects. My dad took the shot like a champ and I guess the relief was pretty instant because he was hungry afterwards and was even laughing with my mom, something he hasn't done in forever. Pain makes you a different person.

But so does anxiety. I don't know what it's like to not be anxious 98% of the time. It's just this constant thing in my life, my "normal." Luckily for me, I have SL to escape into sometimes. And I have someone there to kiss away the pain.

Happy Birthday, Bluebonnet!

If you've been following along with my blog for a long time, you'll know that in September of 2008, I suddenly acquired an island. Owning an island was DEFINITELY never in any of my plans for my SLife. I had moved to the island maybe only a couple of weeks before with my ex-partner. It was his, and it came with renters. Then on September 13th, a bunch of stuff went down and he offered to give it to me - lock, stock, and barrel - renters and all. He'd pay for the transfer, the name change [Bluebonnet wasn't the original name!], and the island changed locations. I was so overwhelmed with how quickly everything was happening, I agreed to it. If I'd had more time to think, I probably wouldn't have. But, I didn't. When the old renters left within that next month, I replaced them with new ones. I figured things out as I went along.

I'm glad I didn't say no to him back then. We've had good times on Bluebonnet. Parties, so so many parties. I've had fantastic people live near me - Bloggers, jewelry makers, home builders. I've had people who stayed a week, and some who have been with me since I got the island. This is where I met some of my best friends, where I got married, and now where we have our family.

It's home.




Happy birthday, Bluebonnet! Six years is a long time to love a place, but oh - how I do love you.

And When We're Apart, I Know How Much You Miss Me

Weekends are usually pretty busy for the both of us. I've probably mentioned it before, but one of Aldwyn's jobs is that he's a DJ. [RL, not SL.] So his weekends are often taken up with various events that he DJs. And often, my weekend days are taken up with visiting with my parents or doing other RL stuff. But nights...it sucks sometimes when he's not able to be around on the weekends. I actually didn't expect him to be around tonight [neither did he], but he managed to make it in. Too late to see the girls, because they needed to sleep, but at least I got to be with him.





So, can I confess something? Sometimes I have teeny tiny tantrums internally when he tells me he won't be around. I know, it's awful! Don't get me wrong, I adore that our girls are normally around to be with me, and if I were ever really lonely, I have the rest of our family to lean on. But it's not the same as having my partner around when I want to do things. Not that we ever really go out any more...but you get my point! :-p But, RL comes first, for the both of us, and we know that.

The one saving grace is that I know he misses me when he can't be around.

If I didn't feel that, I totally would have jumped on that newbie that blazed through our house earlier tonight when the girls and I were in the living room. *laughs* Hey, Birdy liked his accent. It could have worked!

All I've Got To Give To You Are These Five Words Tonight

Tonight, the girls and I headed to Prehistorica and met some dinosaurs!




It was a lot of fun! The dinosaurs are avatars, but most are bots. We happened to come across a T-Rex that was very obviously being run by a person and that T-Rex chased Abby and Birdy ALL over the place! It was so funny! My girls might have little legs, but they are FAST and at one point, the T-Rex went and laid down. It was super cute how he played with them.

A little while after the girls went to bed, Aldwyn came online and we got to spend some alone time together. It's been a while, so it was really nice. :)




Some things have been going on lately, unpartnerings and unfriendings because of some serious serious stuff. As I was filling him in on what has been going on [he has been around the past few days but he's been under the weather so hasn't really stayed online long enough to understand], he stopped me and said, "Thank you for being you." Awww. :) No. He'll never have to worry that suddenly I am going to tell him I'm a man or an alien or a cat. After over 4 years together, he knows who I am and what I have done in my SLife. We laughed about how we were in our very early SL days, too, when families were weird to us but being in the club every night or walking around wearing latex was normal. It's funny how things change. It's good that things change, especially when they change for the better. We are both just so happy with each other and our girls and the rest of our family. We don't always have a lot of time to spend with everyone, or each other, but that just makes every moment precious.

bedtime!

Well, it's kinda never ending?

Good grief, almost 2 weeks away? What's wrong with me?? LOL! Just blame it on The Arcade and being pretty lazy, I guess. It's not that I haven't had things to say, but ... well, things happen. :) Have you completed your Arcade shopping lists yet? Aldwyn helped me out and we finished up my list on Saturday. Awesome, right?? If you are still looking for stuff, check out our yard sale!! We have commons at pull price and rares that are marked up a bit, but still not that bad.

So last night, we went to this place called Escapades and it was supposed to be a game where we killed aliens and did stuff. It was kind of fun, although we didn't quite understand what we were doing! We ran all over and hit random things that came out at us, but mostly it was just fun to explore with the family. Oh, and we got prizes here and there. Like... FALCOR!!




That's not the best picture in the world, but it's not easy to ride Falcor and take pics at the same time, you know.

Bedtime for me! Sorry I've been so boring in here lately. I need to get back in the habit of blogging my thoughts and stuff!