I spend a lot of time in SL alone.
This isn't one of those "Aw, poor lil blogger girl" posts. I fully admit that my being alone is usually by choice these days.
I used to never be alone. Last year, there was always a boyfriend, or working at a club, or spending hours and hours at the Viper Pit with friends and anyone else who wandered by. Being alone was something I had to work for most of the time.
And then last September happened. I won't go back into it because ... hey, no need. By choice, I decided to start spending a lot of time alone. I kind of needed to, you know? I needed time to think and to deal with a lot of things in my own head that therapy hadn't quite covered.
But now? I feel like maybe I shouldn't be alone all the time, and yet I'm having trouble breaking away from it. Could it be that I honestly have forgotten what it's like to just hang out with people? Because truth be told, I'm a little uncomfortable doing it now unless I'm very close to the person. And that's probably not good.
So the question is, how do I break myself of this? A lot of my friends are busy usually in SL, or they have dates or partners. I'd feel weird saying "Hey, someone come sit on the wall with me," because that's what I do most of the time these days. I really don't like clubs, so going to one for company would be weird to me. It's just... well, it's a pickle. LOL Even if someone did come to chill with me, I might not even know what to say anyway.
But I am going to try to break myself out of it. SL is a social thing, or it should be, and being alone 95% of the time is not how it should be spent. I guess we'll see what happens. :)
Ali's Thanks of the Day: I'm thankful for my friends who deal with my craziness as if it's not all that unusual. LOL